My Declaration!
I've been putting this off for a long time. I've been afraid that I would go and find that it isn't really what I want to do, or that I would fail at it. And I've come to this conclusion. So what? So what if I try and find that it isn't for me, so what if I don't get into "the" school I want to get into? Do I really want to base my decisions on whether or not people will judge me for my level of success, especially based on stupid shit like the name of my school, or changing my mind, that answer should be obvious. No. Out of every failure that has ever existed has come knowledge and experience. No one has ever done something unsuccesfully and not learned from it. It's not how we work. We can't unlearn, though we like to pretend and act like we do.
And so it's time. It's time for me to get back to my journey. It's time to take the GRE's, and apply to graduate school. And here on August 28, 2006, I state my goals. I will this Winter take the GRE's, having completed the GRE's I will apply to Graduate school for Psychology Phd, and Psy.d, programs. Upon completion of these goals I will purchase a new roadbike and ride it across the country.
In order to plan for this the immediate steps I must take are:
1)Sign up for the GRE test.
2)Sell my Mt. Bike (I almost killed myself on Saturday) go to about one minute in for the accident. It looks like I just jumped back up, I have no explanation for this. A bad habit I picked up along the way.
3.2)Upgrade my road bike
3)Sell my video camera
4)Put this money into savings, or reinvest in a bike suitable for a cross country trek (not the bike manufacturer, I've wanted to do this since I was 19... but never really fully considered doing it)
Here I have a point of contention. Selling all this stuff. My first reaction is, "Then why did you buy it?" And the only answer I have is, "Because I'm human and I make mistakes." This goes to a deeper problem that I am working on. Namely doing things because they are right for me, because I approve of them, and I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks (not like I don't care, but more of I don't want to factor it into my decision making), just like the Grad school thing.
So I've got a plan. And now all that I can do is live my life to the best of my ability.
And so it's time. It's time for me to get back to my journey. It's time to take the GRE's, and apply to graduate school. And here on August 28, 2006, I state my goals. I will this Winter take the GRE's, having completed the GRE's I will apply to Graduate school for Psychology Phd, and Psy.d, programs. Upon completion of these goals I will purchase a new roadbike and ride it across the country.
In order to plan for this the immediate steps I must take are:
1)Sign up for the GRE test.
2)Sell my Mt. Bike (I almost killed myself on Saturday) go to about one minute in for the accident. It looks like I just jumped back up, I have no explanation for this. A bad habit I picked up along the way.
3.2)Upgrade my road bike
3)Sell my video camera
4)Put this money into savings, or reinvest in a bike suitable for a cross country trek (not the bike manufacturer, I've wanted to do this since I was 19... but never really fully considered doing it)
Here I have a point of contention. Selling all this stuff. My first reaction is, "Then why did you buy it?" And the only answer I have is, "Because I'm human and I make mistakes." This goes to a deeper problem that I am working on. Namely doing things because they are right for me, because I approve of them, and I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks (not like I don't care, but more of I don't want to factor it into my decision making), just like the Grad school thing.
So I've got a plan. And now all that I can do is live my life to the best of my ability.
posted by fred @ Monday, August 28, 2006
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