I came across an interesting observation this morning. I was perusing an internet means of collecting ones friends together. Upon which I came across a former acquantance, a certain person we will cal Esquar. At first I didn't comprehend who this person was from his picture. I enlarged it to see if it was perhaps someone I knew, for I do share common friends with hi, as was indicated by the program. I searched his profile for some clue when like a shock the idea was fully aware within me. My heart began to pound, unnoticed to myself at this point, as the conclusion became fully understood. This man for with I hold much hatred was appearing before me and threating to infiltrate my closest circle of friends. It was at this point I became aware of how severe my physiological reaction was. My heart was beating and I could feel pressure in my head, a symptom of only an increase in blood pressure under the circumstances. Feeling that my grief was founded, I calmed myself down, I reflected on the reaction to which this man initiated. Memories of this Esquar rushed to the surface. Most notably the night of my introduction into the fraternal society. After which a party was held, this man approached me and another and told us he had voted against our entry. Now I consider myself to not be of the nature to gather outward hatred or poor regard from other people. This man, I felt, was lacking in some type of social or mental ability to cope with life as it exists and was therefore spewing his putrid anger onto innocents. But the point of all this chatter is the conclusion to which I find myself inexplicably drawn, I am harboring much ill feelings towards other people that goes unexpressed! And that I even act in a manner to repress it's expression through which I force it to be expressed through a physiological manifestation: my increased heart rate, blod pressure, etc., etc. Most of the feelings I am completely unaware of this is not good and contributes to my current state of distress I am almost certain!

Now I need just arrrive at some plan or conclusion.