Family

So I wrote this lengthy letter to my family today. The purpose was to tell them I had come to a cross roads in my life where I felt like I was ready to go to the next phase of my life, which for me means Grad School. But I also wanted to stress some serious issues I have with them in their lack of trust and confidence in me. Basically they are trying to get me to live my life the way that they want me to, and pressuring me to do so. That is not my way. Here are some outtakes from it.

In my heart I know ultimately what it is that I want to do (and that it will help me achieve the life I want to lead). I know what the life that I want to live will be like, and I'm unwilling to accept any compromise. We differ on this point.

You may not agree with the decisions I make, but you should trust that I am doing what I know is in my best interests. I have always made good decisions and will continue to do so. Even if you can't see the benefit from what I do, I can assure you that I can.

This means accepting that I may not be president, an award winning author, a rich business entrepreneur. But it will mean that I will be happy and that I will truly enjoy my life and what I am doing, and to me that makes all the difference in the world.

From my stepdad I got this lengthy email back talking about turbulences, my pain and suffering, stress and how they make you a better person. The typical I suffered through hell and made it and so should you respone that people are so very fond of. But the truth is it was a real let down to get that email. I had hopes that for once they would understand what the hell I was talking about, but that just wasn't the case. It was more pressure to live my life according to their standards. Maybe they just aren't able to understand.