Adventure Am Erica westward ho(e?, maybe...)

With the awareness that I can leave Nebraska, and the money from selling all of my belongings to make it possible I am leaving Nebraska. The idea was born from the neccesity for work. With the dream of working in film and or television full kicking in my frontal lobe I started to prepare for my journey Westward to Los Angeles. But funny things started happening amidst my preparations. I started thinking. But specifically I was thinking about what I would do with the freetime and money I might accrue while working. Like a lost child my old loves came screaming to the forefront of my brain, Outdoor Adventure. Tied directly to this is my sister. She was in town last week, from Massachusetts, and was driving to Jackson Hole then onto San Francisco. And Jackson Hole burned sat on my head like a fatwoman with hemorrhoids. My vision became obscurred I could no lonber see the city of smog and plastic titties. A vision of myself working 60 hours a week to bring home some sweet tasting bacon melted into dreams of working a Hotel counter and then prancing through pine trees on the weekends. Snow forts, igloos, snowshoeing, skiing, snowboarding, rock climbing, everything that is everything about wonderful outdoor ADVENTURE!

I hear California has beaches though, and mountains, and I could get a job that could lead to a career. A career in television ironically one of my most despised entities on the face of the Earth, but their is always film. I can focus on working in film. I could be the next McDirector, of the next greatest McMovie, straight from McHollywood! I'd be McFinn!

Yet I find myself laying awake at night dreaming up excuses for why I can't go to LA. How once again I will call my expectant friends and what I'll tell them about why I'm not coming. Something cute like, I fell in a hole, and I can't leave. My truck broke down, I've run out of gas/money. I met a girl. I'm in the hospital and it looks like it's going to be a while, I've got an enormous sore on my ass, and they think it's contagious.

The truth is I've dreamed of living the woods life for a long time, longer than I've dreamt of living the Hollywood life. I never really dreamt of living the hollywood life, just taking their money and using it to do the things I want to do. Like live in the woods. Maybe I'll go live in the woods for a bit.